academic validation

honestly feeling all kinds of terrible right now but i feel like every once in our lives we need to lose these battles to come out stronger than ever before — and i can't help but remember how i used to feel relieved, in many ways, that my a levels didn't leave me in tears of helplessness but instead gave me this confidence boost that i really, really needed to have, perhaps too much so that you think you can conquer all these things with all that you've got, but you really really can't and sometimes people fall behind, sometimes we falter and we break and today a part of me wishes that perhaps if things didn't turn out so well to begin with i would've been more afraid than i am now, i would've chosen all these paths that i'd so carefully steer clear of initially, but maybe, maybe, i'd grow up and learn to be a better person than i am now.  sometimes what it takes to really learn is a harsh lesson, or a massive pitfall, and only then will you be able to pick yourself up like you've never before
maybe i haven't done as well as i would have expected to this sem but i guess i could say i've

• experienced, and grown, and truly lived
• learnt the importance of consistency 
• learnt that proper/forward planning is so so so crucial 

nothing is impossible and this is right where you're supposed to be, so make the most of it with every single thing you've got