atlas hands

so yesterday was an extremely eventful day (hehe it was amanda's birthday!) and emma & i had so much fun and laughter coming up with innovative ways to surprise her on facebook but simultaneously annoy the fuck out of everyone who's mutual friends with us

and honestly i don't think i've felt so genuinely happy in ages - it's happiness in it's purest, simplest form that i was pretty convinced that i'd never find again - but it was just so, so palpably there yesterday like i've found a part of me that i thought was gone forever

and in that moment i just realized how thankful i am to have you two in my life despite everything that has changed, it's so nice to know some things just don't, and hopefully never will.

thank you guys for spice and rice and everyth nice, for all our year 11 locker days, waiting for the bus, doing the naughty, for all the humor and comic relief that never fail to get me through days where i wish i'd never woken up, for our strange fetishes, for the giggles, for tumblr askboxes, for threeway skype conversations, for rooftops, for green tea mochi and trooping round town, to amanda for always giving the best advice, for being my first friend and for being there for me through every single emotion imaginable, for our vegas spontaneity (who would've known!!), for my favorite l'usine day, for weed (lma0), for being my shisha buddy, for always understanding and putting up with my shit regardless, to emma for our secret sleepover (lmao)(i still laugh at that), for our weekly english escapades, for balling at ellen, for 2am skype conversations (because i'd fall asleep afterwards lmao weak bitch), for 456483945837 failed allnighters, for that 1 successful allnighter & we both cried, for never failing to make me feel better, for confiding in me from time to time,  for always being on the same wavelength as me, for being so supportive, for being the funniest person i've ever known, for movie marathons via skype (the screaming banshee woman) (extremely loud and incredibly close!!), for atlas hands, and for many many more adventures to come

and i guess i was pretty damn sad that remindings is gone now 

it's so hard to come to terms with this emptiness, that this part of our past is gone because honestly this blog holds so many memories and emotions i'd give anything in the world to relive 

but i think this kind of signals a coming of age, you know?? finally a time to put our past behind us and take on what more life has to offer to us 

and i sure hope we'd get to make a million more memories (roadtrips!!)

i will remember your face 

'cause i am still in love with that place

and when the stars are the only things we'd share 

will you be there?

you guys were my best four years, and i honestly wouldn't be able to imagine myself growing up with anyone else
i think it's safe to say
ain't nobady fresher than my motherfuckin clique 

here's to us, 

and here's to many many more years to come.

brb i am getting all wet n emotional lmao 

so much love for y'all