of your eyes, begonia skies

perhaps i just need to remember that me being so sad about you is because a huge part of who i am is gone, and that part of me — is you. you're gone, as with just another phase in my life and that I have to remember that some relationships make you feel and think and grow but they are just impermanent like stars that fade across the southern sky and i've to be okay with that. that the same star that has promised to shine for you has burnt out; that perhaps it isn't all about floating into the arms of better skies,  but it's learning to love the skies you're under.  this is a new phase, and the sun will perhaps never shine on me the way it used to, but it still shines either way, and sometimes i forget that. sometimes i look in the mirror and watch my bangs fall across my forehead and i remember. i remember that this is me going on without you

we really thought we were the world didn't we