Tulips

When you said tulips
I knew that you're mine
When I caught you there
Crying in the night
Wearing my jacket
Wearing that smile
I knew that I'd found you

This could be an opportunity
This could be an opportunity

Were you unawares?
Did it catch you out?
Or did it break you in
Right from the start?
This is pure as fire
This is pure as snow
I knew that I'd found you

This could be an opportunity
This could be an opportunity

If you promise to let it 

If you promise to let it grow 

Cause you're the one I love

this is one of the most beautiful love songs i've known, and it's only really began to grow on me recently, like one of those wonderful things you've always had but never known to truly love and appreciate.  it's a wonderful feeling i guess, looking someone in the eyes and knowing that they're all you've wanted all this while, no more no less, no second thoughts no borrowed time — and the words "cause you're the one i love" does nothing more than to break every single structure within you, the way the words glimmered and faded with the brilliance of a thousand lost stars, because it's the most honest statement i've heard to date, the most truthful confession one could ever make, it's the most painful realization that could ever hit you — a pang in the chest one quiet Sunday morning, or when you're lost mid-sentence in a convoluted conversation — it hits you, like a sentence you could never really put together, it hits you when you've got nothing left to hold onto but the icky bits of left over feelings, trails of footprints and a whole archive of memories — it hits you, like the way hurricanes do, it makes you come crashing down and grazes you on every jagged edge, and it hurts you — not like the way most achey feelings do, but it hurts you in a way that you cannot quite put into words, and it hurts you in a way you've never imagined before.  it's a kind of heartache, not the kind of lost love, but of a dreadfully sinking feeling in the chest, of a consistently resounding question — why do all roads lead me back to you?